blah.

i'm feeling sick.

i'm feeling anxious.

i'm feeling frustrated.

and i don't know why.

i spent the day doing laundry and picking up some necessities at target. i took care of some things for my club and worked on my research grant/scholarship application. so i checked things off my to-do list. but i don't feel like i accomplished anything. i don't know why. and i am stressing out about going to the city tomorrow. why is it stressing me out!? it should be making me happy. i just feel like there are things i need to do at home before school, but i did all those things today. grr. and i have my midterm due for photography on wednesday so i need to shoot my film in the city.

i wish i could calm down. i wish i could handle pressure a little better. but i always just crack. and for no apparent reason.

james is out with his friends and i called him because he usually makes me feel better. it didn't work. his friends were shouting at him and whatnot. it just made me even more frustrated.

so maybe i'll go shower and see if i can get rid of this blah-ness. :-/