more.

i guess i still want to write more. but that last post wants to be it's own post. :]

so spring break. interesting. i don't know what i'm doing with my time.

yesterday i had my advisement for honors school. they never tell me anything that i don't already know... "your g.p.a. went down after organic chem." hmm. well thanks for noticing. "you need 3 more honors credits to graduate with honors distinction." yep. i know that too. "you should take a course in your major as honors to get those credits." yeah. my only two courses left in my major besides my thesis and proseminar are metabolic regulation and macromolecular biophysics. they'll be bad enough as they are thanks. "you should study abroad for honors points." yeah. i wanted to. it's not working out because i need to do my thesis this summer. thanks for reminding me that i'm doing what i NEED to do instead of what i WANT to do. blah. so yeah. it never really makes me feel good to go to advisement.

i haven't been sleeping well either. i toss and turn. i can't get comfortable. i'm too hot or too cold. last night james and i watched james bond and i was getting so tired towards the end, but once i got in bed... wide awake. blah.

my scrapbooking efforts aren't going too well either. i really want a sewing maching. like bad. i have a page that is just itching for some stitching. a lot of stitching. too much to do by hand. other than that... i look at challenges, and i just don't feel inspired. i look at my pictures and i get an idea in my head, but i can't get it to translate onto paper. so yeah. it's frustrating. there is all this madness right now in the scrapbooking world because creating keepsakes magazine is announcing the winners for their hall of fame contest. i didn't enter. it seems like a lot of work and there comes a point where you start validating your pages based on whether or not they get published. i don't ever want to be in that place. i want to enjoy scrapbooking and create pages that i love and my friends and family love, and i want that to be enough validation. not that it wouldn't be amazing to win something like that. i just don't have the time to put into it right now either. there is another contest by the same magazine. people are starting to work on their entries for that as well. you have to submit 20 pages. for hall of fame, they give you guidelines, but for scrapbooker of the year, it's whatever you want but i think 8 or 12 pages have to be "never before seen" pages.

later today, i want to go look for some new shoes to replace the ones helix claimed. well i just want to go shopping for new stuff period. haha. but i'm working on some research grant/scholarship things that i need to finish up soon. i'm trying to write my personal statement today. it's supposed to be 2 pages and i'm struggling with it. i really don't like writing personal statements, but it's a good amount of money if i win, so i keep trying to tell myself it's worth it. :]

ok. that's enough complaining for today. i should go do something more productive.