barely keeping up.

ack. i know i probably write about this a lot, but i feel like i am barely keeping up with school. i'm just a little overwhelmed right now because i'm still not back into the groove. you know what i mean?

today in the lab, my professor walked by and asked me if i was ok, and i said that i was fine and asked why? he just said that i looked a like i was overwhelmed. i said i was, but mostly just with school. he said "that's the way it should be." ha.

i guess the problem is that the things i need to do and want to do are definitely not the same right now. so it's time to find my focus once again. ack.

tomorrow, james has to go apartment hunting. he's not really happy where he's been living. for one thing, the shower above leaks into his bathroom, and the landlord doesn't seem to be interested in fixing it. so he gave his notice a while ago, but has been too busy to find a new place. now that he has to move out next weekend... it's time to get to work. i love that kind of stuff, so i'm going to try to go with him and look. :]

oh and he got a 94% on his anatomy exam this week. i am so proud of him. anatomy is notorious for being ridiculously hard at our school. but he just studied really hard and didn't give up or get overwhelmed or anxious... i need to take a lesson from him. ha.

last night i had a little visit from the past. it was good though. kind of made me appreciate where i am in my life right now. and also get some closure, but at the same time realize that maybe a friendship is possible. who knows, really. but it was good. maybe one of the best parts was that james was encouraging. i was sort of nervous, but he just told me to go for it. i love the security in our relationship. i think that's an important aspect that my past relationships have been really lacking.

anyway. i'm of to read and fall asleep. it was a long week. i'll be glad for a day off tomorrow.