grr.

i'm at a loss for words here.
but i'm crying, and i just need to get this off my chest.
[it's times like these that make me wish i was a better writer, but oh well.]

i don't understand racism.
seriously. what's the point?

when i was in grade school, no one cared what race anyone was. i was completely unaware that people might think differently about someone just because of the color of their skin. everyone was friends with everyone and no one made rude and unnecessary comments about people because they were a different race. what happened to that time?

anyway. tonight garrett made some very mean comments to me. you can probably guess the nature of them. the thing is, i've tried really hard to maintain a friendship with him because he was such a big part of my life, and vice versa, but maybe he's just not the person i think he is. it's so frustrating when you try to be there for someone and help them be the best person they can be, and in return, they make comments to you knowing they will hurt you.

maybe one day he can find acceptance and happiness in his heart. [and i don't mean acceptance or happiness for me... i mean for himself.]