it just hit me.

i just got really sad about moving. it's been building up today.

for some reason, i kept thinking that today was my last day in reno, but really i have one more day. i'm leaving at 8am thursday morning, and at this point, i don't know when i will be home again.

i went to watch james play softball tonight, and on the way to the game we talked about how i'm feeling and that's when the first rush of sadness hit me. but i brushed it off and talked about how i'm scared to start school instead.

but tonight, i was sitting by myself after everyone had gone to bed and sadness rushed over me. i'm growing up. holy smokes. i'm really growning up.

there's much to be excited about. like making my condo feel like a home. and trying cupcakes from kara's cupcakery. and visiting the ocean on a whim. and having visitors. and meeting new people.

i've been doing a good job of focusing on those things and blocking out the other feelings.

until now.