pack.

i love/hate packing for a trip.
i'm really excited to leave, and i love making the lists of what to bring. i just hate doing the laundry to prepare, even though i love having all my clothes clean to have more options. i love laying my stuff out and planning my outfits, but i don't like actually putting it into the suitcase and trying to make it fit. oh and i hate feeling like i'm forgetting something. i also get really nervous on the way to the airport. and i'm a little nervous that i won't wake up, and i'll miss my flight since i have to go to the airport at 4am. silly things, but yikes.

anyway. i've decided not to take my computer. it's always nice to take a break from the online world. and i figure while i'm there... i won't have much time to go online anyway. plus, i can spend some time finishing my summer reading and i'll have my iPod to keep me company. :]

so i hope everyone has a good weekend. :]

21/22.

for elsie's challenge... 21 things to do before i turn 22. :]

[in whatever order they come to my mind. ha.]

1. get a hair cut. [seriously. it's been like a year and a half.]
2. learn to cook. [i mean... really cook. so that people will *want* to eat the food.]
3. make a weekly workout schedule and stick to it.
4. write my thesis.
5. play with my lomo camera.
6. bake cookies from scratch. [never do this. how sad.]
7. plan a visit to korea.
8. take the GRE. [or decide that i don't want to go to grad school. so basically... make up my mind!]
9. clean out my closet. [and actually *get rid* of some clothes.]
10. submit something to a scrapbook magazine.
11. have tea with josh.
12. visit my family. [both in vegas and denver.]
13. see some live music. [it's been too long.]
14. finish a painting.
15. have a candle making day with girl friends.
16. shoot with my D80.
17. visit some place new. [or at least explore a new area in an already visited place.]
18. go to the ocean.
19. paint pottery. [i've been missing that.]
20. stay focused on school.
21. learn more about who i am and who i can/cannot be.

[and this my friends... is my 150th blog post. yikes.]

[& & this one just because. how can you not like the shins? ha.]

darejack #1.

here it is... my kristina contes darejack.

i finished it up the other night, but forgot to post it. then of course, the computer that the scanner is hooked up to didn't want to find the internet signal. :/

it felt sooo good to make this page. writing all that stuff out really helped. :]

fall.

help me! ha.

what are you favorite things about fall?

i know it's a little hard to think about fall just yet, but i need some ideas.

here's my list of fall favorites so far:
*back to school.
*sweaters.
*apple cider.
*changing leaves.

those are the "good" ones that i can think of. i have some others that might work, but do you have any to add?
i would love/appreciate any ideas you can think of. any ideas at all. :]

[this for my class. i still not entirely stoked about the papers i'm working with, but i'm going to try try try. i want my first class to set the pace and let people see my style, you know?]

otherwise, ever since i moved into this house, every morning when i wake up... i always look to the left as soon as i walk out of my room to see my sister's bedroom door. if it is shut, i know she's still home sleeping. if it's open with the lights on, i know she's still home getting ready. if it's open with the lights off, i know she's not home. well. as you can guess. every morning i still look over to the left. and every morning it's open with the lights off.

it's funny how we have little habits that we don't even realize.

i can't wait for friday. not excited to be to the airport at 4am, but super excited to go to denver. :]

everytime.

everytime my sister and i get off the phone now, we say "i love you" and then i start to cry as soon as i hang up.
i know time will make it better, but right now it's sad.

i made my darejack last night. i need to add something else to it, but i'm not sure what just yet.

otherwise, today was a better day than yesterday.

it started off poorly because i walked out to my car to go to work this morning and found my car had been egged during the night. i don't understand this idea of egging cars. how does it provide you with a night of fun to know that you are going to ruin people's day? and eggs scratch the paint when they hit the car, plus when you can't wash it off right away it starts to eat the paint. it made me pretty mad, and it's not the first time it's happened. but this one was one of the worst ones... they really spent their time and their eggs on my car because the whole thing was covered.

luckily, i called james, and he came to my work, picked up my car, and took it to the car wash. the only problem was that the car wash didn't get the egg off. so he had to wash it off by hand. then he brought it back to me. but he realized when he got out that there was more egg on the other side that he didn't know about. so he took it again, and washed it again at his house. plus he vacuumed it. seriously, i am a lucky girl. and we got to eat lunch together. so yeah. the bad turned into something good.

today is also my parents' anniversary. 34 years. [!!!] but they are both so busy... my dad with the hospital, and my mom with bookwork for the store... that they aren't even going to get to have dinner. :/ i think i'm going to force them go out to dinner sometime soon to celebrate.

now i'm going to take james to dinner as a thank you for taking care of my car today. :]

i hope everyone had a good weekend.

lonely.

today.

just lonely.

frustrated.sad.blah.

just need to vent a little bit.

so james really likes going out. i really like staying home. generally, it's fine. we compromise sometimes and go along with what the other wants to do. and other times, we just do our own thing. but tonight... i wanted him to compromise for me and just come over and hang out with me. my sister is leaving in the morning, and even though i'm going to see her in a week, tonight i'm pretty stinking sad about the fact that she's actually moving. like i said... normally, i don't mind when james and i do our own thing, and tonight maybe i'm overreacting a little bit... but i'm upset that he didn't want to be with me tonight. and i thought that if i just wrote it out, it would help me feel better, but now i'm just getting more sad. :/

i tried to be productive tonight to take my mind off everything. tried to do the darejack, but tore up the page. tried to scrap some other stuff, but just wasn't feeling it. so i resorted to laundry. it's a mess. i gathered up everything and threw it in the laundry room to sort. i have 4, maybe even 5 loads to do. ack. so i've done two... now comes the battle of sorting it and putting it all away. :/

i also cleaned out my room tonight and vacuumed it. [for the record, i don't like the way vacuum is spelled. it's just awkward.] so my room is clean, and looking pretty good. the only problem is that by cleaned out... i mean threw everything out into the hall. so now i have a big mess out there to sort through. and the pessimistic side of me is thinking... well now that my sister is moving out, i'll be all alone down here so it won't even matter that it's messy. :/

tomorrow we're having a breakfast before my sister leaves. then i need to go to macy's. still haven't made my return. and a little retail therapy might be nice.

i hope everyone enjoys the weekend.

[and just for fun.]

automatic.

i just finished this up last night for the "automatic" one little word challenge.

i've had that pro/con list on my scrap desk for so long now... i filled it out way back in march when we returned from this trip. i was so happy to finally get it on a page... and *gasp* a page without any photos. ha. [my boss at the store totally doesn't approve of the no photo layouts. i wonder what she would think if she saw how many i have in my scrapbooks. eek. ha.]

anyway. it's been a busy week, but i haven't gotten as much as i needed to accomplished. ah well. i'm off to dinner right now with my family. my sister is leaving in the morning for her big move... sad to think it will be the last family dinner for a while. :/

i hope everyone is having a fabulous friday!