san antonio day 1.

i'm here in san antonio.
i didn't get to go to sleep before i had to catch my flight, so that was a bad start to things.
now i just want to be home.
i'm having a hard time getting into this whole thing... i feel bad complaining about it because it should be an amazing experience. but yeah. i'm just not feeling it today.

it doesn't help that i feel like i turned in something that was far from my best work for my thesis rough draft. i wanted to have a good rough draft, but i got to stressed out and behind on getting ready for this trip that i ended up not having enough time to do my best work. :/

i'm also just really anxious and stressed because i have a met reg quiz on monday that i would like to do well on, but i won't have time to study for it. why? because i have to read odd women for core humanities and get my ethics notebook ready to turn in on monday.

so yeah. right now i wish i was at home. i just would be feeling so much less stressed about school. plus it's deepa's birthday and i just called james and *everyone* is out at dinner. all the biochem friends, and all of james' and howie's friends... it sounded like they were having so much fun, which just made it even harder to be missing out.

ok. well i'm tired. i haven't slept in 2 days now and this whole week i've been getting minimal sleep because of so many other assignments and presentations. so yeah. goodnight. hopefully tomorrow i will wake up with a new/better attitude.

p.s. i forgot my camera cord, so i won't be able to share any photos until i get home.

happy halloween.

i wore my cat ears to school today. well... to proseminar and lab... i took them off for core humanities because i didn't want to walk around lower campus with them on. up in the med school where my lab is and where proseminar and met reg are, people are pretty festive. so it was fine to wear them around there. even dr. schooley, my met reg professor, dressed up like mr. brown, a character from a dr. seuss book. it was the cutest thing ever. he's like 70 years old or something... so it was just perfect. in my lab, andrew was a mad scientist, rubi was a ladybug, and sharon was a lepidoptera (aka a butterfly). other people in dr. schooley's lab dressed up as other dr. seuss characters, and dr. welch's lab dressed up as alice in wonderland characters. so yeah. i was surprised at how many people were in costume today. :]

my dad just called and said we had 98 trick-or-treaters in fallon. we haven't had nearly that many here. kind of funny.

my lab presentation went pretty smoothly. i didn't get any questions that i couldn't answer, so that was an amazing feeling. i'm so glad i don't have to do that again until next semeter. :]

so now... work on my thesis, do some laundry, print lots of photos, pack, and make a layout using only fiskars products because i just found out we are supposed to bring our favorite layout. well. that would be easy of course, but then i found out about the catch... favorite layout *using mostly fiskars products.* ack. i love heidi grace papers... but i rarely use them on layouts. and when i do... i mix them with other companies. ack. ah well. it will work out. it always does, right?

i can't believe october is already over! but i'm getting so excited for the holiday season. :]

overload.

overload seems like my theme right now.

today, i think i ran out of space on my flash drive. i've had so many presentations this semeter. and papers. and files to store.
it's crazy.

so. i called my dad, and he had my mom pick some up at costco. did you know you can get three 2 GB flash drives for only $50 now!? i remember when they used to cost like $100 just for one with about 1/4 the space. plus these little beauties are retractable, so no worries about losing the silly cap or breaking the connection part. lovely.

[yes. i am really am pretty excited about these flash drives. it's ridiculous... and i'm fully aware of that.]

so. my ethics presentation went really well on monday. i'm SO glad it's over. but now i have to get my notebook from the whole semester ready to turn in. that's going to be way more work then i want to do. i took notes on the presentations knowing that i would need to rewrite them in order to turn them in... but i just really don't want to do that part now. :[

tomorrow i have my lab meeting presentation. i've been stressing about it for so long. i've been working really hard on my powerpoint, and i just don't feel that it's ready yet. so i'm pretty much freaking out. yesterday, i stopped by the lab after my ethics presentation, and sharon said, "so i understand that you might be overly stressing about this lab presentation..." and i was like "well. yeah i'm super stressed about it." and she tried to reassure me, but i don't think that's really possible right now. it's in my nature to stress, and this is bigger then any other presentation that i've ever given. big deal = big anxiety. ack.

as soon as that's done, i have to get to work on my thesis rough draft. i'm probably not as worried about that right now as i should be, but i think all my worries are just focused on the presentation.

then i have to do some laundry, pack, and print my photos for san antonio. i have no idea what to pack. i wanted to plan cute outfits, but i just don't know if i'll have the time to get all the laundry done. and i don't have time to go shopping. i also have no idea what photos to bring. they gave some guidelines, but they are very rough guidelines.

plus. i have to read odd women by monday. i don't know how i'll accomplish that over the weekend. i'm really bad at reading during flights, but i guess i'll have to force myself. oh and last week, i ended up going to barnes and noble to get the book. they didn't have it, but said they would order it and call me when it was at the store. they still haven't called. :[

so i'm overloaded, anxious, tired, and a little frustrated. i think i'll have some tea and get back to work. :/

oh but i did talk to genea last night. that was really nice. it's funny how much we can still relate about things. we talked about how when we go back to fallon, we don't really like to go out in public, but just enjoy the comforts of home. :] anyway. she might be coming down in december to stay for a night or so. it would be really great to see here again. it's been quite a while now.

p.s. Alyssa... sorry for the late notice, but i just got the schedule of events tonight for my trip. it looks like the only free time i will have will be from when i arrive around 3:00 until 7:00pm on friday. i realize that with ted's work schedule, that probably won't work out for you guys. :/ so i'll have to try to make it down to fallon around thanksgiving before i leave for denver. maybe on wednesday i can come out after my class at 2:30...

here kitty kitty kitty.

tonight, i dressed up as a black cat for halloween.
i know... pretty original. ha. but it was a last minute decision to actually dress up and go out.
so my friend carol let me borrow her ears and tail from last year, and i just wore a black leotard [found in the children's section since all mine are in fallon.] and a pair of leggings.
i'm actually glad that i made the effort to dress up though. it was pretty fun to be festive.

i didn't stay out very long because i didn't know that many people at the party, so there wasn't much for me to do, and i felt bad making james stay with my the whole night. so it was a short little outing for me.

it was kind of funny because some of james' friends don't know that i don't really drink, so they kept offering me a beer and each time they did, it just made me crave a glass of milk. i told james about it, and he thought it was fitting since i was dressed as a cat. ha. :]

james and his friends made really some good costumes. i have to say... i was pretty impressed with their handmade spartan costumes. there were 4 of them tonight, but i only managed to get a photo of danny and james together.

& & a couple other cool costumes i saw tonight:
- the ghostbusters. there were a couple of boys who made their own costumes... one was a friend i haven't talked to since 4th grade. how funny. anyway. they customized the jumpsuits with some logos and made really good packs to wear on their backs with lots of wires and big nerf guns. :]
- ninja turtles. there were 4 girls who did this. some of my friends were going to do this as well, so i don't think i idea was all too original, but the girls i saw tonight had green chair cushions for their shells! it was so prefect.
- dog the bounty hunter. there were two boys who both dressed up as him. i thought it was a pretty funny idea.

yeah. so those were the most impressive ones that i can remember seeing.

anyway. i need to get to bed so i can wake up and work on my ethics presentation before work. yikes. tomorrow will be a busy day.

oh. i finally did some cleaning of my scrap area today. i had taken over the coffee table in the living room... [ok. and part of the couch too.] so it was time to straighten things up a bit. i still have some orgainizing to do, but i made some good progress today. it feels pretty good.

and yesterday, i finished up my tags. i started them thursday night and finished about 37 of them before i ran out of the proper cardstock. it turns out, the store didn't have any either. :[ so i had to substitute another shade of teal, but it worked out. i just need to add a little velvet ric rac to the last 23 tags and they will be all done. i was so worried that i might not get them finished, so i'm glad they are pretty much out of the way. it's going to be a crazy busy week ahead.. ethics presentation, lab meeting presentation, and the rough draft of my thesis all before i leave for san antonio friday morning. eek. when will i pack!?

ribbon.

finally found a new use for the laminator that we bought to laminate all the stuff for isef. :]
so here's the little vegas mini.

those were the days.

i miss the days when i could stay up all night talking on the phone.
sometimes to the point where one of us was falling asleep.
[usually not me though.]
and i have a tendency to make it hard for someone to get off the phone with me.
because you know... i just like talking and really don't want the conversation to end.

but. those days are gone.

for one thing... no one likes talking on the phone anymore.
it's all about texting now.

and for another thing... i can't survive without sleep anymore.
it's not even 11:00pm, and i think it's time for bed.

at least i have a nice big piece of pumpkin cream cheese pie from claim jumper in the fridge. :]

grrr.

i'm having a nice case of writer's block.
still trying to work on my paper for core humanities, but it's just not coming along.

i cannot wait until school is over.
but in the mean time...

i cannot wait for friday because it's nevada day! i really want to go to a pumpkin patch, but i don't really know of a good one around here. so i'm thinking about a little trip home. i kind of want to get out of reno anyway. and i've been getting this comforting image of being home of thanksgiving in my mind lately. then i realized i won't be home for thanksgiving. i'll be in colorado. as fabulous and fun as that will be, it will also be pretty stressful and crazy. for one thing... i won't just be able to relax around the house.

but no matter what i do on friday, it's definitely going to be a much needed day off. :]
sadly though, i've been focusing so much on how good it's going to feel to have that day off that i just don't want to do anything that has to be done before then. ack. i remember i used to think that i could never see the "light at the end of the tunnel." now it's about the only thing i can see!

ok. i guess i'll go back to struggling with this paper now.
[did i mention i cannot wait for school to be over!]

so cute.

this commercial makes me smile. :]