funny feeling.

getting old.
ack.
i don't like it.

my sister got a really cool job offer today. there are still some details to work out, but it's looking like she'll be moving to colorado within maybe 6 months. don't get me wrong... i am totally excited for her. she has ALWAYS wanted to live in the denver area because that is where our grandparents live. so yeah. it's just going to be really good for her too. i sense that her life has maybe become a bit mundane here, and she's been itching for a change. she's been saying over and over again for more than a year now that she wants to move. plus the job is a really good one too. so it's good news for sure. i do hope it works out for her.

at the same time. it makes me feel old, and i don't like that. when my brother left, it was pretty hard for me. i still miss having him around. but when katie leaves, it's going to be worse... i can already tell. i'll be the only one left close to home. i realize that perhaps my family is a bit rare to stick together for so long. my sister is almost 26, and i think paul was 28 when he moved out. so yeah, we've definitely stuck together longer than most families. i feel lucky for that, but maybe that just makes it harder too. i don't know. i just have this awkward feeling over the whole getting older thing. kind of like anxiety. maybe mixed with a little bit of fear. so unfortunately, i think my only solution is going to be just to try not to think about it.

james and i had a good dinner with my parents tonight. i really like the way he is able to connect with my parents. last time we visited his parents, i was getting that feeling too. it's a little harder because they usually speak korean to him for a while... i think until they realize that i am there and totally lost. ha. but i do feel comfortable around them and also like they accept me. so yeah.

oh. my pcr didn't work when i ran my electrophoresis today. my pi was gone, so i'll have to check with him tomorrow. but i think the problem could be that i was using old template dna. so i'm probably going to have to extract my own cDNA and gDNA. that means i have to take apart some beetles. ha. i don't know how i feel about that. i better get used to it though. i told them i wasn't afraid of bugs... so i better live up to my word. :]

ok. well. i'm either going to go read or go scrapbook. i should read... but you just never know. maybe i should go to starbucks to read so that i'm away from temptation. ha.