quiet.

yes. i've been quiet for a few days, which is a little rare for me.

i've been busy with my summer class. but now... i have my book paper due in the morning, so of course i need to procrastinate with a little update. ha.

aside from my paper, i have 2 more quizzes, 1 presentation, 1 more journal critique and then my final is next friday. i'm so ready to be done with this class. it's been a pain. not really what i expected it to be and just a lot of unnecessary work. i've learned a couple things... but i was expecting more of a methods class, and instead all we talk about is demographics and social conditions and diversity and things like that. i know that might all be important, but it's just not what i was looking for in this class.

anyway. my pcr finally worked with my new genomic template. [i had to cut the little beetle dude into 3 sections and his guts came running out. they were yellow and yucky. i can't believe i didn't freak out. ha.] so now i can go back and try some more things to see if i can get them to work. i'm really hoping. it's frustrating to not get any results.

my dad's birthday was monday. we had a little dinner here at the house. it was pretty nice. i'm so loving family time these days.
katie's birthday is saturday. so we will have another dinner, and then i think we might go out somewhere. my other friend's birthday is today... so she is planning to go out as well. i'll have to see if i am in the mood. i'm not always up for it. ha.

on sunday i start working at the scrapbook store too. it's their anniversary celebration that day, so it might just be crazy busy. i'm excited though. i'm really excited for my class to be done, so i can just focus on my thesis during the day and then have the night and weekends for fun things like scrapbooking and movies. :] yeah. i'm ready for summer now. i wasn't really ready when school got out... but now... i am so ready!

ok. i better get to work on this book critique. so lame.
i hope everyone has had a great week!

cleaning bug.

yep. i caught the cleaning bug tonight.

james and i were supposed to hang out, but he went to tahoe today and fell asleep when he got home. when he woke up around 11 tonight, he decided to go to a party and i didn't want to go. :/

so i stayed home and i don't know what happened, but i just got in the cleaning mood. i was going to watching pirates 2 to prepare to see pirates 3... but that didn't happen. i have a few more things to straighten up still, but my room is the cleanest it's been since i moved in. there are always the hard things that don't have anywhere to go, but aren't trash. those things are my downfall because i leave them in a pile somewhere and that pile just gets added to and added to until my whole room becomes a mess. so i'm going to try to take care of those things so there aren't any piles waiting to collect into a mess.

i also made this layout while cleaning my scrap desk. i still have a long way to go and i think i can get a few more layouts made in the cleaning process... it's more fun that way. [instead of putting things away or trying to find somewhere to put them away... just use them up.]

i also went to barnes and noble tonight to pick my book for my summer class. we have to read a book of our choice that has to do with education. i tried to look for something regarding science education, but they didn't have anything... so i just got a more general book... something to do with how to be an effective teacher. it looks like a pretty good one. they didn't have anything else that i wanted though. i'm still anxiously waiting for the fourth sisterhood book to come out in paperback. yes. i'm obsessive, and i can't have the fourth one in hardcover because then it won't "match" the first three that are paperbacks. ha.

ok. well i'm off to put some laundry in the dryer, and then it's time for sleep.

sore throat.

i woke up this morning with a terrible sore throat. i've been waiting for it to go away all day now, but it's not. :[

what else... i think i might finally get my new glasses tonight. i went to the eye doctor over a week ago, but when i went to pick new glasses, i couldn't find any that i liked and no one was available to help me look. so i think i'll jump in the shower and try again.


and i just finished these. well one i finished last night... it's about scrapping your "home town." i don't have any photos of fallon that would be good, so i did reno. i usually tell people i am from reno since i was born here and lived here for a while... if i'm really talking to the person about it then i will explain that i have a little bit of fallon mixed in. :]

the second one is using the new love, elsie line. i am so excited about it. i bought all the toby papers. i'm going to buy more... but i've been stalking 2 of the scrapbook stores here waiting for it to come in, so now i feel obligated to buy from both of them. haha. the other store isn't getting their stuff until tuesday. so yeah. loving the new lines. oh and i didn't use any adhesive on this page.

ok. off to the shower now. i hope everyone has a fabulous weekend. :]

:|

there is this one episode of sex in the city where big is dating a new girl. she's a movie star and of course it starts off great for big, but then it goes all wrong. he says over and over when looking to carrie for sympathy or whatever "she can reach me... but i can't ever get her." referring to how she can call him whenever, but he can never get ahold of her.

do you ever have a moment... listening to a song, reading a book, or watching a movie or show where you are just like YES! AMEN! etc. etc. when you relate to the plot so much that you almost think they took the words right from your mouth?

yeah. that's how i've felt in regards to garrett. [there. i'll say his name.] he changed his phone number and sent out a message telling everyone to get back to him for his new number. i responded. but he never did. he called me when he was home with his parents for a week because he could use their phone and was having girl problems and was just generally bored i suppose. i talked to him. tried to help him feel better and whatnot. i needed to ask him something about a month ago, so i resorted to sending him a message on the space. he never responded.

now.

today i was in lab for a good part of the day and wasn't around my phone. when i finally looked at it, i had 14 missed calls, 2 voicemails, and 2 text messages from a number i didn't know. that was all within 2 hours, which really seems extensive to me. so i just called it instead of trying to sort through the messages.

i had no idea what to expect. but then garrett answered. it turns out... he wanted to know where a puppy store in reno is because he was driving through on his way to fallon with nicole [the girl he moved to rocklin for, the same girl he called me to complain about when they broke up] and wanted to stop by the puppy store.

excuse me!? that warranted 14 phone calls?

yeah. i was a little confused. and then i started thinking about it and the more i thought... the more angry i became. i just feel like there was a motive beyond wanting to go to a puppy store. honestly, you can google things like that. i just know that i would never call him [well if i could that is... since i don't have his number anyway] and say "james and i are driving through rocklin and i was wondering if you could tell me where this certain store is located." i just wouldn't do something like that. it seems unnecessary, and there is no need to rub things in each others' faces.

so after talking to my friend about it, i decided that i would call him and just kind of ask what was going on and pretty much tell him that it's not ok for him to be able to contact me whenever he pleases, but never respond to me.

then. i got home and my mom told me garrett had called the house today. [honestly. a bit out of control.] and she said the caller id said nicole, so she thought it was my friend nicole and answered it. ok. so the number he was calling me from was her number. i'm definitely not going to call that number to carry out the above plan.

so i've just resolved that i am going to be stonger and start ignoring him when he calls me. i just think he is looking for a reaction when he calls, and there needs to be a reality check to let him know that i am not just available at his leisure. i want to maintain a friendship with him, but it needs to be fair, and this just isn't. i need to sort of do some housekeeping for my emotions and my life. i know that i let people affect me too much, and i think this will be the way i can help it. it's funny because the biggest thing that made me so unhappy towards the end of our relationship was the fact that he took me for granted SO MUCH. he invested very little time into me, but knew that i would always be there when nothing else was available. and i was. and now i realize that i still am. and it's making me unhappy just like it did back then.

so yeah. i just needed to get that off my chest. :|

funny feeling.

getting old.
ack.
i don't like it.

my sister got a really cool job offer today. there are still some details to work out, but it's looking like she'll be moving to colorado within maybe 6 months. don't get me wrong... i am totally excited for her. she has ALWAYS wanted to live in the denver area because that is where our grandparents live. so yeah. it's just going to be really good for her too. i sense that her life has maybe become a bit mundane here, and she's been itching for a change. she's been saying over and over again for more than a year now that she wants to move. plus the job is a really good one too. so it's good news for sure. i do hope it works out for her.

at the same time. it makes me feel old, and i don't like that. when my brother left, it was pretty hard for me. i still miss having him around. but when katie leaves, it's going to be worse... i can already tell. i'll be the only one left close to home. i realize that perhaps my family is a bit rare to stick together for so long. my sister is almost 26, and i think paul was 28 when he moved out. so yeah, we've definitely stuck together longer than most families. i feel lucky for that, but maybe that just makes it harder too. i don't know. i just have this awkward feeling over the whole getting older thing. kind of like anxiety. maybe mixed with a little bit of fear. so unfortunately, i think my only solution is going to be just to try not to think about it.

james and i had a good dinner with my parents tonight. i really like the way he is able to connect with my parents. last time we visited his parents, i was getting that feeling too. it's a little harder because they usually speak korean to him for a while... i think until they realize that i am there and totally lost. ha. but i do feel comfortable around them and also like they accept me. so yeah.

oh. my pcr didn't work when i ran my electrophoresis today. my pi was gone, so i'll have to check with him tomorrow. but i think the problem could be that i was using old template dna. so i'm probably going to have to extract my own cDNA and gDNA. that means i have to take apart some beetles. ha. i don't know how i feel about that. i better get used to it though. i told them i wasn't afraid of bugs... so i better live up to my word. :]

ok. well. i'm either going to go read or go scrapbook. i should read... but you just never know. maybe i should go to starbucks to read so that i'm away from temptation. ha.

procrastinating.

i used to listen to this band when i was working in the darkroom last semester. it just makes things more fun. :]

keys & stuff.

today i got my very own key to my new lab. pretty crazy. at my old lab, i never had a key to myself. all of the undergrads had a key that we just kind of passed around if we knew we wanted to come in on the weekend or whatever. i don't know why, but it feels like a big deal to have that new addition on my key ring. ha.

my class went pretty well. i have two chapters to read tonight in the text. i realized today that we only have 14 actual class meetings. how weird. one is for the final too. and one was today. so i only have 12 more days of instruction. that sounds so funny to me.

that layout is for an andy warhol challenge. i made it 8.5x11 originally, but it just wasn't right, so i switched it around and made it 12x12. i now realize once again why i don't scrap 12x12. it's so much easier to scan pages than to try to get a good photo. seriously. plus this one is on a transparency, which makes it all the more difficult to capture in a photo.

and sort of on that note. i've now made my second 12x12 layout. i guess this means i'll need to look for a 12x12 album now. :]

ok. i'm off to read now. james and i are recording heroes tonight... so if i get all my reading done, maybe he will come over and we can watch it.

i hope you all have a good week. :]

tomorrow.

i haven't been feeling like i have much to blog about lately. but it just hit me that tomorrow will be a big day... i'm starting my summer school class, and then i will go into my new lab for my first day of working on my thesis. i really have no idea what to expect.

today i need to do tons of laundry. i've gotten back into the habit of just buying new clothes instead of washing what i have. i do that every so often and it's awful. my room is such a mess with laundry everywhere. so i'm trying to get myself in the mood to clean. ha.

i also want to see shrek 3 tonight. i've heard really good things about it and i've been wanting to go to a movie for a while now. james has been doing his own thing a lot lately... mostly going to the lake and hanging out with the guys. i don't mind it too much, but i'm starting to miss him. so i'm going to try to convince him that we should see the movie. yesterday we did go to our friend devon's graduation party in carson. she is leaving on monday to go the prague for the summer to do research over there. she did her thesis in an organic chem lab, so i'm pretty sure she is going over to prague for more chemistry related stuff. when she gets back at the end of the summer, she has a very exciting job at an up and coming biotech company in the bay area. it's sort of interesting actually, the founder of the company dropped out of stanford to start her own research company... it's grown and she's now a millionaire. ack. crazy. i mean... who does that!? ha.

oh and i'm stoked that i came out with a 4.0 this semester. it was my hardest, but also most fulfilling semester so far. i now actually feel like i know a great deal of biochemistry, and i also feel like i'm ready and able to start my thesis.

i decided to take the job at the scrapbook store too. i decided that i'm not going to start until june, but i almost want to start now!

ok. well i need to go start on the laundry! i hope everyone had a good weekend. :]