snow.

last night we had our first snow. i guess it snowed downtown a little bit, but we actually got quite a bit up by my house. when i was driving home, all the mountains up here were white. :]
it's all gone now, but still, it was exciting.

[eta: when i went out today, there was actually still some snow hanging on up there. i just couldn't see it from my window. so even more exciting.]

last night i helped james move into his new place. it's pretty nice, and bigger than his old place. i think he's really going to like it. i guess i should make a little correction though... i *tired* to help him move. ha. i was fine with all the little stuff, but when it came to the boxes... the boys made them so heavy! i was trying to make it in with one, and luckily his roommate walked out as i was half way to the door. i was like "can you take this!" he just started laughing so hard. so yeah.

i'm just a little bit sad for helix because now he doesn't have the little yard to run around freely in, and he doesn't have blue, the dog upstairs, to play with. james says it will be fine and we can take him to the dog park more and go for more walks with him. and i know it will be fine, i'm just a little sad for the little he-man. i'm thinking about bringing him over here and having a test run in my back yard. we have a fence, but i'm worried that there are some spots that he could escape through. that would be really bad because he's not familiar with the area up here and we have a lot of coyotes and stuff.

today is the unr v. unlv game. i opted out of going. it's just so intense with the rivalry, and to be honest... i just don't enjoy football all that much. ha. i do hope unr wins though. :]

oh and this weekend is all the scrap pink events thoughout the nation. our store is participating, so i'm thinking about going to the crop tonight. i never really scrapbook outside of the house for several reasons, but i do have a little project that i'm working on... so if i just take that and what i think i'll need to finish it, maybe it will be productive.

ok. james just called me to pick him up from the game. he said it's too packed there and not really fun. haha. i kind of thought so. and i want to buy i pink shirt to wear tonight. i know. i know. i probably have some, but i can't find one that i would want to wear. my closet is so unorganized right now. so i guess i better get going. i hope everyone is having a fabulous saturday. :]

just what i needed.

i've been a little bit off lately.
i think i know what made it happen, but i can't get rid of this funny way that i'm feeling.
overly anxious.
overly worrisome.
and just kind of scattered.

and all because someone pointed out how the biggest thing that's changed about me over the years is that i think too much now. and worry too much about things i can't control.

i don't want to be like this.
and i definitely don't like feeling this way.

so what's a girl to do?

well...

step 1: buy a ticket to see rilo kiley.
step 2: buy a plane ticket to vegas.
step 3: book a room at the bellagio.



i am so happy and excited. seriously. i'm going to save up some money for a little fabulous shopping while i'm there too. and it's the weekend after my first exam in met reg. so it will be even more needed by then.

i can hardly wait. :]

plus. i'll get to see my brother and sister-in-law. plus plus. my parents might even be there that weekend. how fun.

p.s. i have a bunch of really good photos of the bellagio fountains, but his is the only one i can find. ah well. still pretty.
[and almost as refreshing as the ocean.]

to the max.

yeah. that's how much i procrastinate.
[the funny thing is, this week i spent some time with deepa preparing our lecture for the freshmen... and it was about procrastination and just how terrible it is. nice.]

anyway. my ch paper that is due today was a real struggle. i thought i could finish it last night, but it took me so long to organize in my head and figure out how i wanted to say everything. i'm so out of practice on writing for humanities. ack. so i decided to take a nap around 3am and wake back up a 5am. now it's just past 8am and i'm already done. well. done enough anyway. so i guess that means i finished early? ha.

i think i might try to work on my lss dare. last night i decided as a punishment to myself that i wasn't going to do it because i wouldn't have time. but now maybe i do. ha. plus i think i need a little scrap time after all the anxiety from this paper.

& &

i just realized that the last scrapper standing dare is/has been posted.
it's due wednesday!?
ack.
i hope i can find some scrappy mojo and work on it before then. i have cool ideas floating in my head... but i don't have the proper materials to make it happen. so. i hope i can work it out. my parents brought me the laminator this weekend... so we'll see.

tomorrow.

because right now... still have to work on the homework. ack.
[but i really do just want to work on it now. ha. i think that's a good sign though because i haven't really wanted to scrap for a while.]

& & tuesday i'll be able begin my qrtPCR because my last set of primers should arrive. that means... a long day in the lab. ack. i'm really excited for that data. but i want to get my dare done! ha.

halloween.

it's been raining all day here.
pumpkins are appearing everywhere.
it's time to remember to wear a sweater.
i'm turning on the heat seater when i get in my car.
yeah. fall is here. and that means halloween is coming.
and that means i need to start thinking of a good cute costume. last year, i was deb from napoleon. everyone said i looked just like her on the night i went out. but my actual halloween was spent in the hospital with my dad. i want to have a good costume this year. nothing cheapy or cheesy. just a really good one.
the only idea i have so far is marge simpson. ha. i think it could be a fun one. and relatively easy to do.
but i'm still trying to think if there's anything better. i don't think james and i will do anything matching because it sounds like he and his friends are planning something together.
so. yeah. it's just something fun to think about. :]

i have a lot of homework today, and i really didn't like being at work because it felt so unproductive. i still love all the fun perks of my job though, so i'm going to just try to make it work. i had some reading with me today, but i didn't get any of it read because the store was pretty busy. ack.

oh. and something really exciting happened to me yesterday. i got picked as one of 50 people to go on a fiskateer round-up. it's an all expense paid trip to san antonio for a weekend of crafting. we will become trained on the fiskars scrapbooking products and then we just have to teach 20 people about the products in the following 5 months. i was so giddy when i got the email invitation. and i was dancing around after i registered. so if you're not a fiskateer, you should join because i think they will probably do more of these events, and it's a pretty fun little website. :]

ok. i'm off to read. and write a paper. then study for my met reg quiz. and work on my thesis presentation. then start on another paper. yikes.

oh and heroes starts tomorrow! james and i are so stinking excited.

i hope everyone had a fabulous weekend. :]

barely keeping up.

ack. i know i probably write about this a lot, but i feel like i am barely keeping up with school. i'm just a little overwhelmed right now because i'm still not back into the groove. you know what i mean?

today in the lab, my professor walked by and asked me if i was ok, and i said that i was fine and asked why? he just said that i looked a like i was overwhelmed. i said i was, but mostly just with school. he said "that's the way it should be." ha.

i guess the problem is that the things i need to do and want to do are definitely not the same right now. so it's time to find my focus once again. ack.

tomorrow, james has to go apartment hunting. he's not really happy where he's been living. for one thing, the shower above leaks into his bathroom, and the landlord doesn't seem to be interested in fixing it. so he gave his notice a while ago, but has been too busy to find a new place. now that he has to move out next weekend... it's time to get to work. i love that kind of stuff, so i'm going to try to go with him and look. :]

oh and he got a 94% on his anatomy exam this week. i am so proud of him. anatomy is notorious for being ridiculously hard at our school. but he just studied really hard and didn't give up or get overwhelmed or anxious... i need to take a lesson from him. ha.

last night i had a little visit from the past. it was good though. kind of made me appreciate where i am in my life right now. and also get some closure, but at the same time realize that maybe a friendship is possible. who knows, really. but it was good. maybe one of the best parts was that james was encouraging. i was sort of nervous, but he just told me to go for it. i love the security in our relationship. i think that's an important aspect that my past relationships have been really lacking.

anyway. i'm of to read and fall asleep. it was a long week. i'll be glad for a day off tomorrow.

follow up to eek.

well. i'm back.
but it doesn't really feel like i went anywhere. ha. i have this thing where i have to wake up in a hotel room bed to feel like i have gone anywhere. so since it was a day trip... it's kind of surreal.

anyway. the highlight was definitely the hambly. we placed an order, so it should be to the store soon. i can't wait. we even talked to allison about coming to teach a class at our store. i don't know if it will work out, but that would be so cool. :]

i also fell in love with all the new making memories stuff. some of it should be arriving at the end of this week, and i seriously can't wait. the paper dress and the little papers in that frame are just too cool. and some of them have really nice textures in person.

also, american crafts has a bunch of new thickers. i've had a hard time getting into the foam ones, and some of them are so big that i don't really like to use them... but they came out with some smaller velvet ones that i am going to *need* in every color. ha. they are so cute. there was another cute smaller set in vinyl... i think it was called daiquiri. so i can't wait for those to arrive.

we finished off the day by meeting tim holtz! how cool. he showed us some of his new chipboard products and they are so versatile. he is just full of ideas too... great person to talk to.

so yeah. i had fun. we ended up getting done early because the show was pretty small, so we just went back to the airport and luckily caught an earlier flight home. now i have all this core humanities reading to do and all i want is some sleep. go figure.

eek.

ok. well i'm about to leave for the airport.
still having anxiety, but mostly just for the flight now.

i managed to get everything done yesterday. i even finished reading the two chapters for education and was done with the quizzes by 7pm. [and i got 100% on both. woo whoo.] i was sort of thinking i would just have to take them without reading, but my ethics class got out early, so i had some extra time before going to my work to pick up my plane ticket.

everything always works out, right?
but i still *always* get really bad anxiety when i have too much going on, or something big going on.
and let me just say, it's really not fun living with seemingly perpetual anxiety.
yesterday in my core humanities class, my professor was talking about machiavelli and his thesis. my heart started racing as soon and the word "thesis" came out of his mouth. i have my first draft due on nov. 2nd, and just before i went to that class, a bunch of the biochemers and i were talking about how we need to start writing. ack.

well anyway. a couple things i am looking forward to at memory trends:
hambly booth.
three new scenic route lines.
hambly booth.
hambly booth.

ha. the only thing is that i am wearing dumb shoes today. and i'm not changing them. i know i will come home with terribly sore feet and possibly a few blisters. but they're really cute. and the pants i'm wearing require flat, cute shoes. [even if they aren't too good for walking.] i'm mostly just writing that to myself, so that when i come home and want to complain, i can say to myself "i told you so." ha.

ok. i better leave. i always get to the airport ridiculously early, so i'm trying not to be as early today... but the anxious side of me won't let me delay any longer. :]